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︎︎︎ Evan Laffer
︎ May 20, 2023
at my lowest
I admitted it was an honor
just to be nominated
and to the high noon sun
at its most moonlike
screaming down
"I heard you liked romance"
I would have said yes
even wanting is done poorly
on the first try
when the power failed
and the restaurant filled with smoke
I thought this could ruin dinner
and you thought this is my life
preferring to see it all as
something only half-owned
a good guess that’d been corrected
what an idiot thinks bitterly
about a pound of feathers
eventually
there was nothing I could do
to convince you
you were not loitering
we do our best
sharing a
park bench or bed
with equal tact
both could become more
but somehow
never after dark
morning sex
good I thought
part of your workday
across the table,
sitting on a
stranger’s ass
I looked
like someone
paying a bill
I admitted it was an honor
just to be nominated
and to the high noon sun
at its most moonlike
screaming down
"I heard you liked romance"
I would have said yes
even wanting is done poorly
on the first try
when the power failed
and the restaurant filled with smoke
I thought this could ruin dinner
and you thought this is my life
preferring to see it all as
something only half-owned
a good guess that’d been corrected
what an idiot thinks bitterly
about a pound of feathers
eventually
there was nothing I could do
to convince you
you were not loitering
we do our best
sharing a
park bench or bed
with equal tact
both could become more
but somehow
never after dark
morning sex
good I thought
part of your workday
across the table,
sitting on a
stranger’s ass
I looked
like someone
paying a bill
Evan Laffer is a podcaster and poet not necessarily in that order. He has lived in New York and Los Angeles and likes both. @elaffer
Also by Evan: who loves the sun, rabbit rabbit
Also by Evan: who loves the sun, rabbit rabbit