so what — if i never have an original thought, so what — if i’m far from home, so what — if home feels abstract, so what — if i eat the whole pizza, so what — if i miss my friend’s call, so what — if i’m tired of talking, so what — if i say nothing, so what — if i dream about you, so what — if i grieve something that never happened, so what — if i listen for my own voice, so what — if i hear fireworks instead, so what — if it’s now Tuesday, so what — if it’s raining, so what — if you drink Vermouth too, so what — if you linger on the page, so what — if you look my way, so what — if i hold your gaze, so what — if you get up, so what — if i hope it’s for me, so what — if it’s for a cigarette, so what — if you’re nervous, so what — if i am too, so what — if i visit a country where i don’t speak the language, so what — if i feel weary, so what — if i’m the oldest i’ve ever been, so what — if i’m the dumbest i’ve ever felt, so what — if i believe in something yet to come, so what — if my psychic tells me that, so what — if everything works out in the end, so what — if i say that, so what.